Holidays

My heart is really starting to ache thinking about the upcoming holidays. I am scared to death. Most people look forward to them...all the food, family and gifts. I thought I'd had the last of the lonely holidays. I LOVED having two of each last year. I didn't care that it might get tricky to try to fit two huge dinners in one day because I was finally able to have two dinners in one day! Now I'm alone again. Just me, the 34 year old with my parents after all the siblings leave to have their second dinner. It is just so pathetic. I hate waking up on a holiday alone. Baking pies alone. Getting dressed up alone. Coming home alone.

I guess I should make a list of things I'm thankful for so as to take my mind off of all this.
1. My family
2. My doggie
3. My roommates
4. My pastor
5. A job
6. A house
7. A car
8. Very little debt
9. My health