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I'm single. I'm 34 and single. Am I alone? I don't want to be single. I want to be like everyone else. I want to sit around with my friends complaining about my husband. I want to exchange "how we met stories" and "wedding nightmares" and "the in-laws from hell" holidays. Most of all, I just want to be loved. To have someone choose me to spend the rest of his life with. I want someone to dote on, take care of, brag about...

Yet here I sit. Alone. Satan is telling me constantly that there is something wrong with me. That God has completely forgotten me or worse, doesn't really care how I feel. Satan scares me daily with visions of my lonely future, sitting in the back row of the church by myself at Christmas. He lies to me about my friends not wanting to be around me. About my family tired of my tears.

I know this has started extremely negative. I don't want to sound like Sally Sourpuss. I just want to be honest. How many are out there feeling awkward not only in their world, but in their church, their friend circles or even their own skin? How do you cope? How do you dry your tears?

I know all the Bible answers. I know that God is with me. That he hasn't forgotten me. That Satan is a liar. That my identity should be in Christ. If that is your answer for me, please don't respond. I want human, healing answers.

Do I sound bitter? That is exactly why I'm writing this. I don't want to get there. I need help.

Who knows, maybe tomorrow I'll have the encouragement that you need.